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My head hurts some times. Not headaches, but just the swimming of ideas and responsibilities that continue to flood it. Art music and food are constantly swarming and sting every once in a while. It hurts to not to create, but sometimes I just have to not to. Painting comes more slowly, food comes like a bullet to the head and music is just there. I've been writing music since I was a kid, not physically writing on to paper, but recording hmms and beeps and bloops. Later when I had my first four track recorder it was more sound experimentation. After being in a few bands my recording became more structured, until today where I have digital recording equip and many tracks available. But I don't record with the same voracity that I used to. It's more like I look at my equipment and the play button stops. Maybe it's because my focus has been more on food recently. I do cook for a living, so I think everything else was put on the back burner. I love painting, my blood pumps music and my body is nourished by recipes. It all comes to a head and swells. To much information to fast to produce, to where I often forget some of the ideas that come up. I deal with it the best I can, mostly by driving myself in one of the three directions. But I still need to take a break every once in a while and and tap into the two that are needed.

Cheers